Gay by nature. Absolutely fabulous by choice.

Meh....

2006-12-12T13:33:00.000-08:00

Ok so it's been a while since I've posted. And my oh my a lot has happened. So much stuff and so little time. I'll get it out. Be careful I'm probably writing a novel.

First of all. I'm not living with Joseph in Dallas. His mother decided it was too stressful and I needed to move. I would have been perfectly fine with this if she had given me at least a days notice. But no. And to add insult to injury, Her life really isn't any less stressful since I've moved out. And as a bit of an addon to the annoyance of having no warning of my eviction, I had just got my license that day. Under the Dallas address. So now I need to apply for a change of address with the DMV.

Also, the neverending job saga continues. While I was making progress in Dallas, I was evicted so I had to start over from square one in Albany. Which is failing horribly. This is the worst time of the year to be job hunting. This is because Seasonal hiring is over and nobody will be hiring again till January at the earliest. Even fast food (which I won't touch unless I Absolutely have to) isn't hiring because all the other people who missed seasonal have taken all those jobs as well. So I'm basically screwed.

And all of this stresses me and Joseph to the extremes. He might be getting a job here in Albany but he doesn't want to do it if things aren't going to work. I want them to work but I just can't win. Don't misunderstand me, we aren't breaking up. It's just really stressed out lately. There are days when I just don't want to bother getting up out of bed. Or living for that matter. But I don't give up and I keep moving at least a little. I know things are going to get better eventually but I'm so tired of waiting. I just don't know how much longer I can wait. I hope something changes soon. And changes for the better.

Ok so it's been awhile.

2006-10-19T05:08:00.000-07:00

I deciede (at 5 am mind you) that it was time for an update. So far a lot has happened. I moved to Dallas with my boyfriend, Joseph. Things are a bit stressed but they're getting better everyday. Joseph had mono for a while and was rather cranky during that time. But he's over it now and getting back up to speed with the rest of the world. I on the other hand, FINALLY have a job interview on Friday with Game Stop in the Salem Center Mall. I have a really good feeling about the interview so I'm hoping things go well. Also, I'm going to be getting my license and a car within the next couple weeks. So, that means I'll most likely be making more trips into Albany to see my friends and go to game night and such. I can't wait to have a little more freedom and some money too. On that note, my mother owns yet another part of my soul. She owns it now because she graciously paid the rest of my debt on my iBook. But in the end that's better than nothing. While I do have to pay her back and such, She won't charge me interest. In miscelaneous news, I'm really bored. I've been up all night, I'm getting kinda tired but I can't go to sleep because I'm supposed to be getting up at 8:30 to go into Salem to go see a friend with Joseph. So I'll probably just stay awake and surf the web and listen to music for the rest of the night/morning. Till next time, Adieu.

An Update As Of 18/09/2006

2006-09-18T10:25:00.000-07:00

Woot! I'm finally moving out of my parents house and in with my boyfriend! So happy!! The one really big downside is that I'm leaving all my really good friends in Albany. I'll miss them so much. I will come and visit when I can and definately try to make it for friday night game at the least. So, I'm already about halfway moved in and already I'm missing Albany. On the other hand, I'm so glad to finally be free of my parents and I'm pretty sure they're glad to be rid of me too. I'll be making a couple trips into Albany this week to pack and move more of my stuff out to Dallas. Then I get to spend a ton of time looking for a job in Salem or Dallas so I can actually have money. But, knowing my luck, As soon as I'm fully moved in I'll get a call from several places in Albany asking me to come in for an interview. Meh. I guess I'll just have to deal with it and keep moving along and eventually I'll get a job somewhere else. The other issue is that I don't have a car and if my schedule doesn't work with Joseph's then I'm SOL on getting a ride out to where ever I work. So then it's either bus or bike until I can afford a vehicle.

Speaking of Joseph. We've been doing well lately. A bit stressed and cranky but things should smooth out sooner or later. The only real problem we've been having is whenever I even indirectly mention ANY of the guys I was with during the two months we were separated he gets all upset and defensive. I know he's trying really hard to get over it but something seems to be holding him back from letting it go. He knows it upsets me when he gets upset about it, so I know he's trying to let go. I don't know. I've pretty much done all I can do to help him. The rest is up to him I guess.

Anyway. I've moved and such and it finally kinda seems like my life isn't just spinning it's wheels anymore. I think the last few months of the year might be a bit tough but things will get better eventually. Next year should be better. I hope.

I hate you in that "cut off your head with a toothbrush" kind of way.

2006-08-11T19:15:00.000-07:00

GAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!! I'm so frustrated! For the past couple weeks me and my friend Audrey have been running around town job hunting. We picked up applications for several places, filled them out, turned them in, and checked back in on them. So far in the past 2 or 3 weeks Audrey has had several callbacks and at least 4 interviews. Meanwhile I haven't gotten a damn thing. It just frustrates me so much. Me and Audrey are at about the same disadvantage. Neither of us has ever had a job. Yet time after time she recieves interviews and calls while I get nothing. It's nothing against her, It's just terribly upseting to put out effort and get nothing for it time after time after time. I'm just so tired of trying and failing.

And another day to go.

2006-08-06T21:34:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow should be fun. I get to get up early and go out and check back on my job applications. Then I'll probably spend the day hanging out with my friend Audrey and after that I'm going to a concert at Montieth River Park. It's a swing band this week. ^_^

Ugh.

2006-08-06T02:20:00.000-07:00

Ok so maybe I'm crazy. After last night's late night excursion I'm at it again. Except tonight I'm traveling a bit farther than just the local theater. My friend Cody is coming back after living for the past month in Alaska. So me, Joseph, and Cody's mother are going to travel an hour and a half to the north to pick him up from the airport at 5:46. I must be a glutton for punishment. I'm so going to pass out at some point. Now, on a different note. A slight bit of information about the way I talk about time. I talk about time in a 24 hour clock way. That way, there's no confusing AM and PM. So what would be 1:00 PM is 13:00. Just subtract 12 for anything after 12. Simple? If you can't figure it out then that's your problem. =^_^=

Good Morning is an oxymoron.

2006-08-05T13:10:00.000-07:00

I'm so tired. I went to go see Pirates Of The Caribbean 2 last night with Joseph (my boyfriend). The movie started at 10:00 pm and went till about 12:30 am! We got home and went straight to bed. I bareley even woke up this morning when he got up for work. Then, after some more sleep, Mom came home. The thing was, I thought she had to work today so I thought someone had broken into my house. I came down the stairs with a sword in one hand and a cell phone ready to dial 911 in the other. :P I'm just a bit blonde. She didn't have to work today, She just went to go get her hair done.

Heyo

2006-08-04T19:10:00.000-07:00

So today's been pretty busy and such. Slept in till about noon, Went to Salem to get my hair cut, Went to lunch at a fabulous asian restaurant, And later I'm going to a movie in Salem again with my mother and my boyfriend. The funny thing will be seeing mother freak when she sees how my boyfriend and I are going out. I'm going totally gothed out with plenty of eye makeup and my boyfriend is going in a bit of a blue theme. I'll talk about him more later when he's not here reading over my shoulder. Don't know what movie we're going to see but I guess I'll find out when mother comes home.

Stuff to do.

2006-08-03T13:27:00.000-07:00

Ok. So I set up my profile and such. All I have left to do here is fix up my template and remember to actually post here from time to time. Won't that be difficult?

I'm fabulous damn it!

2006-08-03T12:54:00.000-07:00

I dunno. Lol. I'm just really bored and I figured starting a blog would kill some quality time.